who am i?|
i am a deep romantic entity inclined to cyberpunk and human suffering, always prone to depression (at least in my years of non-childhood till now).
maybe i could say i'm a dark romantic (?).
some say i have an anarchic attitude (i don't like to be categorized, especially talking about politics)...
i think i'm almost free from preconceived ideas, as i always try to contest and decontextualize what i think; i always consider that i could be in error.
i am a thinker, something similar to a philosopher (a low quality one = )
i have a naturally deep-rooted sense of logic, in fact i think that it is weird that a rational person like me enjoys arts so much... but maybe i can't understand why yet
i think i'm affected by a very slight form of autism, or a similar mental-thing ... i don't know, maybe it's just paranoia, but i don't think so.
among other things i can't understand people without open and accurate talking... so i give much importance to verbal communication, and words, and as result i am something like a natural born linguist (i used to look up every word i didn't know as a child, so i know a lot of words in my native language)
i think knowledge is the most important thing we have and we could possibly use... i am not a progressist though.
what do i love?
i love the most the expression of feelings, the more rude, the more immediate (as the opposite of 'mediate, as 'direct') it is, the more free it will be... and chained feelings are one of the worst things in the world, in my opinion.
chained feelings are a thing that make me cry, especially when i see someone who chains his/hers feelings without the knowledge of doing it... and it is a very common thing.
i really enjoy every feeling, as bad as it could be... i'm really 'happy', for example, when i find something sorrowful enough to cry for, and in that case i really enjoy floating in the sea of sorrow; but i don't go look for it.... i am not a super-human, even if i enjoy suffering (not in a masochist way: i suffer because of sorrow, but i know that it will help me, and that sorrow is what make a person a real person) i could not stand much, as anyone.
what is art for me?
i consider art just as expression of feelings.
for sure it needs human skill to be displayed (in most cases), but the skill means nothing to me, on the contrary of feeling expression.
skill is something that an artist needs for displaying exactly the feelings he/she wants.
i have been playing electric guitar for 6 years now, as autodidact, in rock sub-genres, like punk, grunge, stoner, psychedelic, alternative (mainly).
music represent a big piece of me, and i intend it just as 'art for ears'.
i don't limit myself to those music genres. i am no 'racist' about that... i split music in 2 categories only: the one i enjoy, the one i do not ...
what do i hate?
i hate ostentation, i hate futilty, i hate pop things (as usually they contain a high amount of ostentation and/or futility).
above all i hate the mass, the crowd; i do not hate the people who form it (if yes, maybe i should hate myself too for that?).
anyway i am near to the zen philosphy (i got there without studying it... i am not interested in religions), so i hate really few things.
some times, there is ONE thing i really hate. ME.